Amelia's AIP Journey - Day 1 (sort of)
Monday, September 28, 2020
I had another episode last week.
Thankfully, I didn’t have to go to the hospital this time.
I feel defeated, overwhelmed, and frustrated.
I wish I didn’t have to deal with these issues… as if I don’t have enough problems.
My therapist helped me link the emotional issues to the physical ones….
a life time of twisted truths has led to a lifetime of twisted intestines… a lifetime of not knowing how to properly process my severe and traumatic emotions has led to a lifetime of not being able to properly process my food.
Delia says I should go on an AIP diet…
Looking it up… at first, it’s overwhelming… but I’m trying not to let myself get overwhelmed especially since stress is a major contributor to the issues I’m facing.
Thankfully, I don’t have an autoimmune disorder… but I do have chronic inflammation and seriously need to heal my insides. :(
Poor baby.
I’m trying to find that sweet, maternal, unconditional love for myself… and I think I have it — It just makes me really, really sad.
My best friend encouraged me to try and make this journey fun.
That was helpful to hear even though I’m not sure how I’m gonna do that.
My commitment is to myself. My loving, healing journey. I can do this… I think. I hope.
I found two pretty cool Facebook groups that I think can help me…
One is for AIP Recipes with a shit ton of resources and the other is for emotional support.
Patience isn’t really my virtue… but with these issues I have, I suppose I don’t really have a choice.
I think I will do a self-love healing retreat for myself in the new year when it gets too cold to be in New York.
I was looking up monthly stays on Air BnB in Orange County (CA) and they really weren’t so bad. I think I can find something there…
Wish me luck, y’all.
I hope I survive this.
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